In black and white
Posted on 02. Mar, 2012 by Ali Abbas in Todays Thought
here i sit.. staring at my laptops screen… my mind as blank as the first page of an old book.. as empty as a hollow oak tree.. searching for something… anything.. but unable to find even the faintest wisp of reality…trying again and again.. but no words come out..nothing seems to make sense… not a single emotion that could be converted into black and white.. nothing.. i am literally feeling like a new born.. who knows of nothing.. neither friends nor foe.. but it cant be a good thing for me.. can it? People think being indifferent is a blessing… being immune from the system of life is a gift given to few… but that’s not true.. at least not the entire truth.. i mean it sounds great.. and yes at times it does help in escaping from the frighting realms of reality … but not without leaving a scar…i am lost and i have no idea where this is going… not that i care… but why don’t i? but why should i? See reading this will give you quite an insight to the confused yet calm state my mind is in.. its like knowing that something will happen.. and instead of reacting to the situation you stay quite… yes maybe that is what i am experiencing… maybe i can see whats coming next.. and despite all the panic signals my brain is sending i choose to stay with the heart which has grown as cold as it gets… strange is the relation between these two.. never can they agree onto something yet they will never leave each other alone.. the heart and the brain.. unison of two opposites which creates something so unique it cannot be described… i am not a perfect human… no i am far from being that… i am rigged with flaws…for a long enough time i tried to mend myself and even others… acting as some sort of savior… a messiah to all… but then it struck to me… the flaws are not meant to be mend… they are to be accepted as it is… there is a reason why God made us the way we are… and to find that reason is the greatest challenge of life… have i taken up this challenge? Will answering this one question enable me to break free from the shackles of nothingness? maybe yes.. maybe no.. i really don’t know… but then again.. not that i care…
sAm
Mar 4th, 2012
In black and white ..you get the greys.
n it all looks grey in this post
Ali Abbas
Mar 4th, 2012
you can say that… grey.. everything between black and white
Shahzaib
Mar 4th, 2012
(y)
Ali Abbas
Mar 5th, 2012
zafar maliCk
Mar 5th, 2012
though u wrote something after a long time but once again beautiful,deep and at the same time a little NOSTALGIC…….
Ali Abbas
Mar 5th, 2012
appreciate the comments, thank you
fatima
Mar 7th, 2012
think about urself once n forever and things will work out.
there is light at the end of every tunnel
Ali Abbas
Mar 7th, 2012
its not about myself, its about people you care.
SQ
Mar 9th, 2012
True..!!
Each and every facet of the black and white is purely and truly defined..!!
It hurts when you find that you are standing in the middle of nowhere..
And that standing in between, leads no one nowhere..!!
PEACE.
Nice write up Ali
Ali Abbas
Mar 9th, 2012
Thank you for the appreciation. Yes its a strange feeling to be in the middle of no where.
Munis
Mar 18th, 2012
Nicely done, strikes a chord with me
Ali Abbas
Mar 19th, 2012
thank you munis
moosa
Mar 25th, 2012
.. you do a lot better than that… could not feel much through it!!!
Apologies!!!